Completely Unrelated

The first half of last year, I was an exercise fiend. I worked out every day during my lunch break. Then we went to New York, and shortly after, I went to Europe. Then school started. I just haven't had time to get back to the gym. Now I work 7:30-5:30 and do homework during my lunch break, so that when I'm home, I'm present with my kid. When he isn't home, I'm painting. (Because I decided this is the year to redecorate the house.)

Now it's been ten months since I was exercising regularly, and I'm feeling it. I'm tired. I'm achy. I haven't gained any weight, but I feel gross. I have friends who work out, and I'm genuinely jealous. I want to be fit again. I want to wear shorts and fit into those jeans and be confident in tank tops. But when I have time to actually work out for a few minutes on Friday, Saturday or Sunday, I don't wanna. I'm tired. But I'm more tired of looking at pics of tiny women and coveting their size sixes.

Here's the thing: I've overcome so much of what was laid upon me. My parents didn't go to college. I have an Associates, and I'm working toward my Bachelors. Mold: broken. My mom was an alcoholic. I refuse to succumb. I would get so frustrated with her when she would complain about being overweight, but she wouldn't even go on walks. I do NOT want to be that way. So... I have to change my way of thinking. Maybe look at it as an act of rebellion. I'm 40, but a girl still has to go against some kind of flow.

So I'm contemplating joining this Fit Girl Challenge (blog link to the right). I started it in January, but didn't finish, because I lost motivation. That's kinda my schtick: losing motivation. Especially when it comes to working out. But I can do this. Right? I mean... even if I just go on walks, and work out for 15 minutes a day. Start SOMEWHERE. Geez, woman. I also signed up for DailyBurn. They have a ton of different videos with different times on them. I could pick one that's 15 minutes, or one that's 60, if I have time.

The challenge starts April 20th. It's called the #28dayjumpstart. Honestly, I should have done three of these by now, and I should be on the bikini challenge. Oh well. Start somewhere. Start now. I can do this.

I guess the contemplation is over.